Getting Lost in Love and then finding out it was all a lie:(

Sorry everyone, I went on a small break because things just seem to be getting more hectic everyday. I am so ready for school to start so I can start making a better future for the only 2 true loves in my life. I will no longer be concentrating on anything other than Brayden, Dylan, and school!! I hope to oneday leave this dead end town on my own. Only to provide a better future for my little men.

Brayden has started football practices. This is his first year to ever play and he is playing two-back!! I love watching him go out and learn something new and do so well at it. I am so lucky to have been so blessed with amazing talented little guys!!!

Hope everyone has a great day:)

Over the Weekend:)

My weekend was amazing!!! We played another baseball game saturday and we won. All of the boys did great. Then I got the afternoon to myself with the babe. So relaxing to just lay around napping and watching tv in his arms with out all the kids running in every ten minutes. Saturday night out with the girls didn't turn out at all like I expected but hey we have our off nights too:( On fathers day I got the pleasure of spending it with my mom and step daddy!!! I also got to visit with my step sister, brother n law and newest nephew Jagger!! Then it was off to spend the rest of fathers day with Joe and all the kids at the lake. I am so super excited for our future.

So blessed to have 2 very, very active children!!!

Today Brayden will be playing baseball in Malakoff, against the Orioles. This is a big game for the team because it determines whether or not they make it to the play-offs. I am so proud of all of these boys for the progression that they have made since day one. Even though I am still not sure of all the rules in the sport, I am so excited to see Brayden play so well and it makes us push harder to become better. He definatley is going to be my little all-star!!!!

On another note, today may be the day that some things get said. Some might be good and some may be bad. Either way I just have to remember that we are all happy and that is all that should matter. This is all probably not making sense but more info on the topic will come at a later time:)

Waking up to hugs and kisses!!

Wow, this was a year and a half ago. As I think back to before Dylan was born I could have never imagined why I wanted to take on another kid when the love from Brayden was over abundant. Brayden has always loved me even at my weakest points. But now that I was blessed to have another boy come into my life and melt my heart the way that Dylan does, I understand why God chose me to be the mommy to these two amazing boys. Every morning regardless of the moods we wake up in, my boys always give me kisses and hugs. It makes me so proud that I have taught my boys to show love. I often think of how so many parents take this for granted, and I am not pointing fingers because I myself have been guilty. I am just saying what about the parents that use their kids to make themselves look better in bad situations. How dare them. I know I may not read a story every single night and I might scream and need a break every now and then, but by no means would I ever hurt my kids or put them in the position where they feel unsafe or scared.

Just a little Food for Thought, OUR Kids did not ask to be brought into this world, so it is our job as parents to remind them that they deserve to be here and to be able to live a happy and full life just like the rest of us. THE END!!

A little about me before the real blogs start:)

I just want to start off to say that these past 3 weeks have truly been amazing. I have finally found the true me. I have met someone who is so family oriented and enjoys being crazy with me and all the kids. That's right all the kids. Together it will be six kids. I have always prayed that I would I have a big family, I just didn't realize that God had this in mind. I will love and cherish every minute of it.

So to sum up why I wanted to start this blog: I really want people to get to know the real me. The me that stands up for what I believe in. The me that loves her kids more than life itself. The me that will always go that extra mile for the ones I love, know matter what my situation may be.

Brayden Zackary, my oldest!!:  This boy is my rock and he will always be. He is a very smart and talented 8 year old. Brayden makes a/b honor roll, plays soccer, basket ball, baseball, and football. He also does a gymnastics class once a week:) When I had him at 18 I never knew that he would change my life as much as he did and all for the better!!!

Dylan Michael, the Baby!!!!: Well not so much a baby anymore. This crazy two year old definitely keeps me on my toes. He can make anyone smile and laugh but boy oh boy if Dylan isn't happy then no one is. Dylan has taught me how to slow down a lot. He, unlike his brother, is much more slow paced when it comes to learning and much more fast paced when it comes to playing.

I can' t wait to see what the future holds for the three of us and I know it will be amazing!!!